Sunday, February 19, 2012
One month
Thursday marked one month since starting this journey. One. whole. month. It really did fly by, and I know as long as I keep my head in the game, it will continue to do so. I did quite a bit of reflecting, and a little bit of crying on that day. In one month I've lost 26 pounds and 17.5 inches (which actually is more, but I only measure one side of my body). I've gone down 2 sizes. My knees don't hurt anymore. I don't pee myself when I laugh or cough. My back feels much better. I'm happier. I like shopping again. I do my hair and make-up and put on nice clothes almost every day. My self confidence is coming back. I'm more outgoing in social situations. I have more energy. I want to go do things. The list goes on and on. Basically, I'm a completely different person than I was a month ago, and obviously they are good changes. If this is what 26 pounds does to me...I can't imagine what it's going to be like when the rest of it is gone!
Monday, February 13, 2012
Day 29 - Absence, Goals, and Parties
Woah, a bit of a hiatus. Sorry about that, I guess sometimes life gets in the way. I've been following IP 100%, and I have to admit, I'm PROUD! Officially I'm down 23.5 pounds as of my last weigh in, unofficially it's 27. I had a little goal to be down 20 pounds by Feb. 11. I accomplished that goal, and then some. My very sweet husband came home from work the day I realized I surpassed my goal, and made me get on the scale. After the drama of me stepping on, he handed me a gift card to my favorite store and told me to go shopping. I went (duh!) and, in my true shopping ways, scoped out the clearance. I was able to find a pair of jeans and 2 shirts for $18. I love clearance racks. I must also mention that the jeans are SKINNY JEANS! Before Christmas, I probably tried on 30 pairs, and they looked awful. However...when you're nearly 30 pounds lighter, they certainly look better. I'm pretty much obsessed with wearing them. I feel incredibly good in them.
I had a goal for Feb. 11 and the reason being is that we went to a birthday party that night, and I saw a lot of people that I haven't seen for a long time, and some friends that hadn't seen me since I started the diet. No comments, but I know people could tell. I KNOW I look different. I was worried about this party. It was at a bar...with a lot of alcohol consumption, and I honestly didn't know if I could be around it and not partake in the festivities. However...my willpower, motivation, and desire to get my Valentine's day present early won out, and I made it through the entire night without consuming a single drop of alcohol. It feels great to know that I can make it through anything!
Last night we bowled, and our partners hadn't seen us since before Christmas due to vacations, sick kids, etc. I relished in the comments and compliments and questions the wife had for me. She kept staring at me and saying, "You look great!" I'm so glad there are people out there who aren't afraid to say things like that. Even though I KNOW I look different and better, sometimes it's just nice to know that someone other than your husband notices. I associate with a lot of people who will not say a word, and that's fine too. I also associate with negative people who will say things like, "Yeah, you're taking it off, but will you be able to keep it off? That's the hard part." Sometimes, I just smile and nod, and it doesn't bother me. Other times I freak out on the inside and have all snorts of snide comments that I want to throw back at them. Here are some examples:
1. Oh really, if this is the easy part, then why don't YOU do it, and lose the 100 pounds you need to lose.
2. I don't plan on keeping it off. I enjoy torturing myself, so I'm going to get the weight off, then eat as much as I can to put it back on. (Sarcastic, obviously).
3. I think I know what I need to do to maintain my weight loss, and I'm not asking any tips from you because it's fairly obvious that you don't know the right things to eat.
4. Why don't you let ME worry about maintenance, you worry about yourself.
I know, most of them are MEAN, but well....I don't need lectures right now and it bothers me. Most of the time I just smile, nod my head, and say that I'm being taught how to eat right when I'm off the diet, and that I'm not worried. I explain that I have committed myself to a lifestyle change, and that I'm not going through this for nothing, and that I never want to go through it again. Some people....
I guess that's all for now. Hopefully there won't be anymore long absences. I would love to say I'll blog everyday, but really my goal is 2-3 times a week. I was stupid to think I could blog everyday. I have too much to do, and frankly, don't have much to say everyday!
I had a goal for Feb. 11 and the reason being is that we went to a birthday party that night, and I saw a lot of people that I haven't seen for a long time, and some friends that hadn't seen me since I started the diet. No comments, but I know people could tell. I KNOW I look different. I was worried about this party. It was at a bar...with a lot of alcohol consumption, and I honestly didn't know if I could be around it and not partake in the festivities. However...my willpower, motivation, and desire to get my Valentine's day present early won out, and I made it through the entire night without consuming a single drop of alcohol. It feels great to know that I can make it through anything!
Last night we bowled, and our partners hadn't seen us since before Christmas due to vacations, sick kids, etc. I relished in the comments and compliments and questions the wife had for me. She kept staring at me and saying, "You look great!" I'm so glad there are people out there who aren't afraid to say things like that. Even though I KNOW I look different and better, sometimes it's just nice to know that someone other than your husband notices. I associate with a lot of people who will not say a word, and that's fine too. I also associate with negative people who will say things like, "Yeah, you're taking it off, but will you be able to keep it off? That's the hard part." Sometimes, I just smile and nod, and it doesn't bother me. Other times I freak out on the inside and have all snorts of snide comments that I want to throw back at them. Here are some examples:
1. Oh really, if this is the easy part, then why don't YOU do it, and lose the 100 pounds you need to lose.
2. I don't plan on keeping it off. I enjoy torturing myself, so I'm going to get the weight off, then eat as much as I can to put it back on. (Sarcastic, obviously).
3. I think I know what I need to do to maintain my weight loss, and I'm not asking any tips from you because it's fairly obvious that you don't know the right things to eat.
4. Why don't you let ME worry about maintenance, you worry about yourself.
I know, most of them are MEAN, but well....I don't need lectures right now and it bothers me. Most of the time I just smile, nod my head, and say that I'm being taught how to eat right when I'm off the diet, and that I'm not worried. I explain that I have committed myself to a lifestyle change, and that I'm not going through this for nothing, and that I never want to go through it again. Some people....
I guess that's all for now. Hopefully there won't be anymore long absences. I would love to say I'll blog everyday, but really my goal is 2-3 times a week. I was stupid to think I could blog everyday. I have too much to do, and frankly, don't have much to say everyday!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Day 15 - The Weekend and Jeans
I survived the weekend...whew! It was actually a pretty ok weekend...a little stressful, but ok! My hardest night was Saturday night when I made pizza and cookies for the kids. I was fine until my husband sat right in front of me eating. Ugh. Oh well, I am going to have to learn to accept it and get over it.
I had to buy a new pair of jeans today. We have several events coming up this month, and the only pair of "going out" jeans I had were falling off of me. I bought a size 16. I think it's been about 2 or 3 years since I've bought that size!
Other than that...nothing new to report!
I had to buy a new pair of jeans today. We have several events coming up this month, and the only pair of "going out" jeans I had were falling off of me. I bought a size 16. I think it's been about 2 or 3 years since I've bought that size!
Other than that...nothing new to report!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Day 11 - Weigh In and Cravings
Oops, sorry for being absent last night. My life is catching up to me and I'm a little stressed right now. I work too much.
Today was my second weigh-in. I was down another 6.5 pounds and 2.5 inches, making my total loss for less than two weeks 13.5 pounds and 5.5 inches. Can I get a whoop whoop??? My coach was very encouraging tonight, as I had a very bad day today. Basically I'm craving sugar. Anything sugar I could get my hands on. I wouldn't care what it was. I had to run to the convenience store this morning, and I admit I browsed the candy aisle. It was classic angel on one shoulder, demon on the other. Suffice it to say, the angel won and I walked out without candy. It's the small victories that matter sometimes. My coach was very encouraging, and told me to have an extra packet to keep cravings at bay, even if it meant I had 2 restricted packets in one day. I'm glad she told me that. I'll remember that next month when the sugar cravings hit again.
I didn't feel much like cooking tonight. Honestly, I was just plain lazy. I was playing WOW (if you don't know what that is, don't worry, it just means you're not a big nerd like I am) and didn't feel like getting off my duff. So, it was sandwiches all around, including me. I made bread out of my broccoli cheese soup packet, and it was FANTASTIC! As a soup, that stuff is nasty, but as a bread for some turkey, it's rather tasty! I could eat it plain, without turkey and mustard and all the veggies I put on it. I think I may have a new lunch item.
That's about all for now. I have 3 extra kids in my house this weekend. My two girls ages 6 and 2, and we are babysitting for some friends. They have 3 girls, ages 1, 3, and 5. Wish me luck.
Today was my second weigh-in. I was down another 6.5 pounds and 2.5 inches, making my total loss for less than two weeks 13.5 pounds and 5.5 inches. Can I get a whoop whoop??? My coach was very encouraging tonight, as I had a very bad day today. Basically I'm craving sugar. Anything sugar I could get my hands on. I wouldn't care what it was. I had to run to the convenience store this morning, and I admit I browsed the candy aisle. It was classic angel on one shoulder, demon on the other. Suffice it to say, the angel won and I walked out without candy. It's the small victories that matter sometimes. My coach was very encouraging, and told me to have an extra packet to keep cravings at bay, even if it meant I had 2 restricted packets in one day. I'm glad she told me that. I'll remember that next month when the sugar cravings hit again.
I didn't feel much like cooking tonight. Honestly, I was just plain lazy. I was playing WOW (if you don't know what that is, don't worry, it just means you're not a big nerd like I am) and didn't feel like getting off my duff. So, it was sandwiches all around, including me. I made bread out of my broccoli cheese soup packet, and it was FANTASTIC! As a soup, that stuff is nasty, but as a bread for some turkey, it's rather tasty! I could eat it plain, without turkey and mustard and all the veggies I put on it. I think I may have a new lunch item.
That's about all for now. I have 3 extra kids in my house this weekend. My two girls ages 6 and 2, and we are babysitting for some friends. They have 3 girls, ages 1, 3, and 5. Wish me luck.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Day 9 - Not Much
Well, there really isn't a lot to report today. Same old, same old! It is definitely getting easier to be on this diet. Foods really don't bother me, unless I get too hungry, and then I want to cheat...but I haven't and I will not!
I tried the Walden Farms Creamy Bacon dressing today at lunch. Gross. I think I'll stick to olive oil and seasonings. That seems to be the best, especially with a little onion cut up in my lettuce. I have a weird palate sometimes. :)
I know I should stay off the scale, but it's hard. I haven't lost anything for 2 days. It does not bother me, because I know it's working and catching up from the big loss I just had. I am excited for weigh-in day, though! I will also get to measure inches, and I am very excited to see what those numbers look like.
I'm still fighting nausea throughout the day. I'm going to talk to my coach about it this week when I talk to her on Thursday. It had only been bothering me in the evenings after supper, but now it seems like it's more often. For example, today at work I got very nauseated around lunch time and had a hard time choking down my salad and pudding. I'm sure it will go away, but it's kind of annoying right now!
I tried the Walden Farms Creamy Bacon dressing today at lunch. Gross. I think I'll stick to olive oil and seasonings. That seems to be the best, especially with a little onion cut up in my lettuce. I have a weird palate sometimes. :)
I know I should stay off the scale, but it's hard. I haven't lost anything for 2 days. It does not bother me, because I know it's working and catching up from the big loss I just had. I am excited for weigh-in day, though! I will also get to measure inches, and I am very excited to see what those numbers look like.
I'm still fighting nausea throughout the day. I'm going to talk to my coach about it this week when I talk to her on Thursday. It had only been bothering me in the evenings after supper, but now it seems like it's more often. For example, today at work I got very nauseated around lunch time and had a hard time choking down my salad and pudding. I'm sure it will go away, but it's kind of annoying right now!
Monday, January 23, 2012
Day 8 - Week and Weekend
Day 8 is over, folks. It's getting easier by the day. Since today was my official one week "anniversary" of starting Ideal Protein, I decided to weigh. I'm down a total of 11 pounds! Woot!
This weekend was spent at my mom and dad's house, as previously mentioned. It was HARD. Not only was the food hard, but my grandma was there, and her comments and observations were HARDER. She asked me how the diet was going, and I told her I had lost 7 pounds so far. Instead of a congratulatory response, I heard..."Well, yeah, you've lost 7 pounds, but you have a long way to go. Then how are you going to keep it off?" That set the mood for the entire afternoon. I served soup for the family and tried to be normal and social, but my family was staring at me (or at least it felt like it). I sat in the other room with my daughter and my husband, but watching those two eat while I was starving was awful. I finally locked myself in the bedroom...and cried. For 20 minutes. Probably not the most mature thing to do, or the best way to handle the situation, but I didn't cheat, and that's all that matters to me. When I finally did eat, all I heard was negativity about the food I was eating. Suffice it to say, I was crabby and glad when everyone left. On a side note, I had the vegetable chili for supper that night...it was delicious!
Sunday was a much better day. My husband and I took a mini road trip to get some Walden Farms dressings for me, and when we left, he did drive-thru at a local fast food joint. It did not bother me at all. Now that I'm home, it's all good, and I have restored confidence and motivation. I have to let what others say go in one ear and out the other. I know I can and will do this...but for the life of me, I can't understand why some people think this is such a bad thing, or that I will not succeed. Well...guess what naysayers....I WILL DO THIS!
This weekend was spent at my mom and dad's house, as previously mentioned. It was HARD. Not only was the food hard, but my grandma was there, and her comments and observations were HARDER. She asked me how the diet was going, and I told her I had lost 7 pounds so far. Instead of a congratulatory response, I heard..."Well, yeah, you've lost 7 pounds, but you have a long way to go. Then how are you going to keep it off?" That set the mood for the entire afternoon. I served soup for the family and tried to be normal and social, but my family was staring at me (or at least it felt like it). I sat in the other room with my daughter and my husband, but watching those two eat while I was starving was awful. I finally locked myself in the bedroom...and cried. For 20 minutes. Probably not the most mature thing to do, or the best way to handle the situation, but I didn't cheat, and that's all that matters to me. When I finally did eat, all I heard was negativity about the food I was eating. Suffice it to say, I was crabby and glad when everyone left. On a side note, I had the vegetable chili for supper that night...it was delicious!
Sunday was a much better day. My husband and I took a mini road trip to get some Walden Farms dressings for me, and when we left, he did drive-thru at a local fast food joint. It did not bother me at all. Now that I'm home, it's all good, and I have restored confidence and motivation. I have to let what others say go in one ear and out the other. I know I can and will do this...but for the life of me, I can't understand why some people think this is such a bad thing, or that I will not succeed. Well...guess what naysayers....I WILL DO THIS!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Day 4 - Weigh In and Resturaunts
Day 4 is in the books. Another day closer to goal. Even though I just started the program on Monday, I had my first weigh in today so that I could get on schedule with my coach. I lost a total of 7 pounds and 5 inches. I have to say...I am so extremely proud of myself. Today I had a bad day at work. I was so stressed out when I left, and I drove past Dairy Queen. I was tempted. Very, very tempted. But....I drove on. I just had to tell myself....7 pounds....5 inches....over and over again. It's so stupid, and I felt ridiculous. I guess I'm an emotional eater after all...even though I never considered myself one before.
My oldest daughter K is on a precision dance team, and the team preformed at a basketball game this evening. OMG...so proud of her. I actually had tears in my eyes watching her. She is so grown up. Anyway...afterwards, everyone was starving, and since it was our supper time, we decided to go out to eat. We went to a local steak house, so I felt like I had a good selection of foods that I could eat. I ate my salad plain...which was fine. I really, really wanted shrimp, but decided to ask how it is cooked. Turns out when they grill it, they use butter. Darn it. So, I had a steak. It wasn't bad at all, even without sauce...after I sent it back to have it cooked again. Last time I checked, a medium steak does not bleed. Ew. I also had to pass on the steamed veggies...because they cook those in butter, too. But...I had green beans....and had to pick out the bacon, but they were very good. I'm proud of myself for watching my family eat bread, fries, and potatoes...and sticking to my guns. I did have to take a big whiff of the bread though. It smelled so good! 7 pounds....5 inches....7 pounds.....5 inches. :)
This weekend we go to my mom and dad's house for the weekend, so I may not update. Thankfully, she is on the diet too, so we will have each other for support when the rest of the family is pigging out on yummy stuff. We've planned our meal, and she has lots of lettuce and veggies on hand.
If I don't update again before the weekend...I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend! IP, baby!
My oldest daughter K is on a precision dance team, and the team preformed at a basketball game this evening. OMG...so proud of her. I actually had tears in my eyes watching her. She is so grown up. Anyway...afterwards, everyone was starving, and since it was our supper time, we decided to go out to eat. We went to a local steak house, so I felt like I had a good selection of foods that I could eat. I ate my salad plain...which was fine. I really, really wanted shrimp, but decided to ask how it is cooked. Turns out when they grill it, they use butter. Darn it. So, I had a steak. It wasn't bad at all, even without sauce...after I sent it back to have it cooked again. Last time I checked, a medium steak does not bleed. Ew. I also had to pass on the steamed veggies...because they cook those in butter, too. But...I had green beans....and had to pick out the bacon, but they were very good. I'm proud of myself for watching my family eat bread, fries, and potatoes...and sticking to my guns. I did have to take a big whiff of the bread though. It smelled so good! 7 pounds....5 inches....7 pounds.....5 inches. :)
This weekend we go to my mom and dad's house for the weekend, so I may not update. Thankfully, she is on the diet too, so we will have each other for support when the rest of the family is pigging out on yummy stuff. We've planned our meal, and she has lots of lettuce and veggies on hand.
If I don't update again before the weekend...I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend! IP, baby!
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